| Musical Interlude: Gary Jules - Mad World
**Snarling and pacing the unkempt floor**
The sickness has kept me from my duties.... I terrorize only myself. And for all the thirsty ticks that seek my blood.. feel free to take it... devour me whole and let it be finished... I tire of these games.... these promises.... these ultimate lies.
In reference to the April 10th blog... it's OVER! "It" was exhausting to say the least. The break was bad, but so be it. Things end as they end and there's nothing I can do to retract the stinging barb.
Where do the pieces of the puzzle really fit? |
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| Musical Interlude: Blue October - 18th Floor Balcony
Nothing But The Sand
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Verdant tendrils, I feel the strain
and resist the urge to run
Volcanic tremors shake my spine
heart's weigh a metric ton
Insight wrought of honeyfyre
and wisdom forged by age
Releasing me from past regret
and the laments of the cage
Metallic echoes of desperate seas
the silver of the band
The hourglass always mocking me
i'm nothing but the sand |
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| Musical Interlude: Dead Kennedys - Too Drunk To Fuck
The tides have turned but I did not abandoned the watchtower.... prepare for something on the verge of different. After the darkest deepest search, a companion has broken through the barbed wire heartstrings and plucked a smile from some hidden place. Somehow there is a closing of the void that had become my heart.
Please don't let me fuck this up.
Today my eyes have opened to actually see an alternate future.... one of considerably less miserable texture than I had expected the rest of my days to be.... I never planned on being so overcome with joy.. there.. I said it... J-O-Y. I'm pretty freakin happy today.... ARE YOU LISTENING WORLD???? Fuck all the times I've been screwed over.... there's someone out there that's totally into me.... and I'm pretty sure this is what I've been waiting for. **Fingers crossed** |
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| Musical Interlude: Audioslave - Doesn't Remind Me
So what the fuck is up with forgetting? How is my mind so easily clouded to the past..... I have blocked out the hardships of my younger days.. of my poverty... only to be undone.. untwisted into a ball of knotted threads.
Yes, the Hurricane came... yes, she killed the dew-kissed blooms of my future... again I am homeless... this time with young monsters and their ever-ready need for attention. My young lovelies are atleast a constant distraction from the hard work ahead.
I am tired of picking up the pieces.... I surpass "Lonely"
Here I am... out in the world.... with nothing substantial to call my own. It just pisses me off, and now that I'm angry, I am obsessed with rebuilding. A constant thought of "Where can I go?" with a constant answer of "Nowhere".
Where do people such as this turn for some relief.... others with their own problems care not.... they love not... they listen not.... not not not.....
**tremble** NOT FAIR, says the cat.... **melting to my knees** not fair.
Where are you now when I need you most? |
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| Musical Interlude: Stone Temple Pilots- Big Empty
**Sigh** im still here... chained to the floor... going out of my mind.... and it's cold in here.. who turned off the HellFire?
Thought for the day: What are your "dating dealbreakers"? |
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